Breathless
Not for the faint of heart...
raw
i try to be afraid
allow the hungry ghosts to
interfere i watch words
listen to the actions
examine the man
for factory defects
looking for a place to hang
a freak-out on
instead finding
missing pieces
deep seated needs
primal
come as a surprise
what looks like weak supplication
is merely the power of
self restraint disguised
unwritten
stolen moment
peach blush sunrise
the wind that mummifies
is in a pleasant state of mind
bestowing cool kisses
to be gathered in baskets
labeled tied with velvet ribbons
tucked in your pockets
when you aren't looking
hearth
cuts that cut
cuts that bind
blood runs clear like water
stitches pulled exquisite care
lighthouse kissed away
all sins and psyched out scars
forgotten
love-bite branded
safe harbor
mortal
ever waited for the answer
is it bad news
will my hair fall out
will i crap myself in public
will my body decompose
while my ego's still aware
who'd be there in my weakness
who'd hold my fine-boned hands
skin as delicate as tissue
who'd face the place with me
the place where the future ends
walk me right up to it
and kiss me loving
when it took me
who is strong enough
who's heart is that pure
that could sit still with me
in the darkest hours
and never let me see the falter
who would choose that path
knowing it ends in shattered dreams
it's not a trick question
with a puzzle for an answer
i've fallen leaped or been
pushed from high ledges
the difference is now
you're here
hunger
feed need breeds need
thoughts one dares not think
cause warm flushes of wet or
imminent erection
tender and cherishing violence
red palm prints
purple green to yellow causing
concerned stares raised eyebrows
so innocent we look so sweet getting old
bite marks broken skin
secret madness
table for two
revelation
skin kissed with bite marks
tickled with scratches
blushes winces tender to the touch
neck bared
curled into your body
safe protected cherished
the sting that softens
the burn that remembers
this is alive
morning
effervescent
walking away from demons
back glance over shoulder
they know my name
seductive whisper lullaby
calling as if no cliff nor rocks
as if repeat drowning were a cure
for singularly universal ails
weak alone
dancing disaster
strength then tentative steps
steep incline
a fright all dizzy
don't look up then don't look down
just be this moment pierced by love
starting line
needing something to fight for
shadowed by
phantom fears of ghostly nothings
like claws from the grave
holding onto the ankles
of bodies that are born to fly
pulling me back
pulling me down to the
black place that consumes
a voice, like light, like reason
pierces the barriers
held close help me
relearn
the skill of dreaming
bonus round
i wouldn't change the past
the pain
it brought me home my
steadfast friend to you
surprise
skinned knees and crow's feet
lemme show you some tricks
insane cackle feels good try it
make them look make them
wish they were
happy
too
kneel
hands that cruel-crush no thanks
give me him that loves true and pinches
chokes bites to bruise
with tender protection
until it isn't clear who is more
a-spin
not for everyone
not for anyone else
anchorage
witness to a play on words
soft passing fancy i have been
tears fell from all
my eyes like alkaline burns
until no mercy left within
hammer bellows forge
hard steel buffoon
unrepentant mystic pure unspoiled
no chase no cry no plead
just dance just watch just be
open
the place where anything is possible
his heart is home he
found me
djinni
small i fit
upturned palm
pearl of wisdom
spit blood-brother shake
stigmata or munchausen by proxy
either way it bleeds for love
and begs a miracle
here i am to taste the stain
remove it with my teeth
when you forget that you
are holy i
will always
lick it clean
directive
secrets hidden from the conscious mind
identities we fear peeking from
behind the veil
of our own construction
fragments seeking coalition
conflict seeking balance
ebb flow catch and release
all paths lead to certain death
release your inner kraken
or at least the inner childish
wisdom of impromptu parades
confetti glitter hearts and rainbows
stomping puddles tickles
pull my fingers
magic happens
so go be happy
i command you
divestiture
spare white walls
cornerless inside of an eggshell
like incremental tree rings
souvenirs accumulate
pins on a memory map
of places swallowed by the elements
navigating by braille via
horse-drawn gypsy caravan
gaily painted bells tassels
mysterious custom passing through a
visitor witness peripheral participant
out of time fading into sepia
life's orbit slowing
planets align
love-mysteries ignite
mayhap unite
port and starboard
leave the past behind
raft
marbles lost
peace made
pounds of flesh
paid and repaid
a lifetime spent
in the pursuit of
coming home to roost
exactly where i am
on the graph
a point in space
someone, you
searching-waiting as if
(kneaded carved half-baked)
for me
caloric
fire need not be eaten
to be exhaled
passion manifest in flames
withering the branches
of the tree it wants
only to caress
combustion as chemical reaction
death by oxytocin
closed eyes kisses
now upon your upturned face
ardent featherweight
all or nothing sparks
that question questions
require attention dare
do you ecstatic-as-verb
bare feet on coals
or do you secretly
pray for rain
collared
invisible tethers
tendrils really vines
psychic living flesh
connecting self to cosmos
connecting selves to each another
across the unimaginable
non-existent abyss
thoughts collide
adrenaline high
magical healing time
close enough to be
on the other side
of yesterday's tomorrow find
a sweet complete a circle
fingers teasing at my windpipe
fangs tearing at my throat
submission to the only man
secure enough to claim me
tick tock
events mapped logged
weighed yes measured
from the starting line
fast slow twitch
predictable muscles
hit the mark
on schedule like a german train
watch-wait i do
curious impersonal
being
in the still point of
love no matter what
hold
behind eyelids after rubbing
staring into a personal abyss
shot with sparkles
stars quasars black holes
micro universe captured in the
mind space that doesn't
exist this is where
consciousness observes itself
in fragments and puzzle pieces
that oddtimes fit
like custom made
